| Back at NP |
[January 07, 2010 @ 2:55pm] |
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Didn't realize how much I miss Ngee Ann until I saw the huge gates and bus stop. Makes me sad that I still have some regrets about some of the choices I made while I was here. At least lots of good came out of my stay here -- I met the wonderful LHC girls :) Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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| Revival. |
[January 03, 2010 @ 9:13pm] |
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Found out abt this app from Nad's blog, and decided to use it to revive the old space. Seems like I'm doing everything on this phone, haha. Hmmm oh well let's see just how long this lasts hehe cause we all know how long my previous bouts of blogging have lasted in the past. Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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| 100% merepek. |
[June 15, 2009 @ 4:21pm] |
some people are so mighty irritating lah. tak bleh ungs.
when we ajak them meet us, they duwan to meet.
when we lazy to ajak them alr due to the very fact that they never wanna meet, they call us sombong.
merepek ah lu mat.
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[May 19, 2009 @ 10:29am] |
I just have to say this.
I'M GOING CLIMBING TODAY!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| focus! |
[May 19, 2009 @ 10:25am] |
I reached work early today with the intention of leaving early later. And it's already 10.26am and I still have not commenced with my work for the day.
Not that there's a whole lot lah, but still.
OK UMI! FOCUS!!!
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| W-H-I-N-Y. |
[May 18, 2009 @ 5:39pm] |
It's tough to train when you're a newbie and you don't have much friends in the scene, and the person you usually go with (your boyfriend) is always busy these days and can only climb once a week.
I don't blame him. I just wish I could go any time I want and stay to my heart's content. I wish I could go whenever I feel like it.
But it's so tough when I have to wait for people all the time.
Should I just go alone?
I actually do intend to go alone next week, but I have a huge feeling I'll probably chicken out at the last minute. Alamak. How lidat?
I think I'll be more comfortable going alone after a day of ACTUALLY going alone. It was the same for gym. After just once of going alone, I was comfortable enough to keep going alone when friends couldn't make it.
But right..I'm so sick of the gym I tell you!
It's been 5 months of gym-ing 4 times a week! 5 MONTHS!
It's seriously getting M-O-N-O-T-O-N-O-U-S.
BORING LAH.
I always do the same thing..
30 Mins - Treadmill
20 Mins - Elliptical
20 Mins - Stair Climber
20 Mins - Bicycle
20 Mins - Strength Training
Sometimes I eliminate one or two when I've reached my target of 500cals due to boredom, and that's not good! I need to train like before!
I am getting L-A-Z-Y to go gym! I want to do something else! *stomps feet like a 5-year-old*
I want to climb climb and climb only! I don't want to do anything else but climb!
But it's so tough! HOW!
Not to mention how expensive it is, even for members. 8bucks per entry (cause for me, I can only go after 6.30pm due to sucky work. bleurghhhh). If i were to reduce my gym-ing to maybe once or twice a week, and climb 3 times a week, I'd need 24bucks per week. If there are 4 weeks in a month, I'd need 96bucks a month just to climb!!
Why, Climb Asia??! Why so expensive???!
And stupid company of mine! Why you cut my pay?! WHY?!
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Ok fine. I'm just being whiny.
I'm happy.
Yes.
I should just keep telling myself that until I actually believe it.
K bye!
(Disclaimer: Yes I do realize I never update about events/happenings/outings anymore, and I'm sorry! Will try to. The truth is, events/happenings/outings entries require many2 photos, and I'm lazy. Muahahaha. Okok I will try!)
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| The boy is mine. |
[May 15, 2009 @ 2:22am] |
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Now this is what I call B-E-A-UTIFUL. And unbelievably so.
First saw him in A Very Long Engagement, and haven't looked back since.
Gaspard Ulliel, je t'aime!
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| aku pon tak tau apesal aku rase mcm nak bebual melayu. |
[May 06, 2009 @ 10:37am] |
HAIYO. aku dah ckp aku tak boleh pergi tu tak boleh pergi lah.
aku mintak maaf lah kerana tak dapat pergi, aku benar2 mintak maaf. tapi tak cukop jugak ke untok kau.
sumpah, kalau aku boleh pergi aku pergi. aku pon dah set aside duit untok malam nie.
tapi aku TER-book BTL aku on this day, and terlambat nak cancel. it requires 48 hours to cancel tau. and another perempuan miang tu pon baru confirm bile die free. jadi aku tunggu lah die confirm. aku dah dari last week tanye which is the confirmed date, tapi si perempuan miang tu lambat nak reply, ape aku bleh buat?
aku harap kau takkan buat mulot lah. so far, selama aku kenal kau (8 bulan gitu ah) kau tak mcm gitu. tapi kau suka kan ckp aku 'horrible'.
ye lahhh aku horrible lah. buat aku rase guilty jer.
aku sakit tau!
sekarang kepala ku bagai nak pecah dan hidong ku aku rase macam nak cabot buang pat dustbin.
ok tak kena mengena. tapi memang betol.
aku sakit (demam) and aku takot nanti BBDC tak kasi aku masok. hah. memang padan muka aku lah kalau gitu.
*tolong remind aku k siape2 yang sudi, that aku kena pegi amek gambar passport size pasal aku nye gambar2 yang pat rumah tu dah hilang entah ke mane.
NUR RAIHANAH BTE RAHMAT DAN SITI AISHAH BTE YUNUS!
kite pegi karaoke satu hari nak? kite bwklah boypren2 kite skali ok. nyanyi mcm katak bentong pon takpe, asalkan kite HAVE FUN! JOM JOM JOM. tapi of course kalau karaoke kena tunggu satu2 gaji masok lah eh. kite pegi either weekday or sunday ah jadi murah siket hahaha. in the meantime, kite pegi camping pat east coast nak?! =)))
aku sakit lah. nie semua adik aku yg musibot nye pasal. dektu dah saket pastu die pegi jilat straw aku. abes lah germ2 die semua aku terminom. kong ajar betol ah.
DAN. yang paling best skali kan, dah sakit takpe tau. tapi aku tengah second day period ah geng! seperti di-squeeze2 uterus aku dibuatnya. sakit tau!
ok sebelom aku merepek lagi, BYE!
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| Aku tak nak jadi seorang designer. |
[May 05, 2009 @ 10:32am] |
It's been barely 8 months into this job, and I've already been reduced to tears more than thrice. I don't know if it's little or alot to you, but I think it says something.
The people are fine. They're fine as friends, but not-so-fine as colleagues, esp those from different depts. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if they're nice to me so that they can wring favors out of me.
Everyone wants to be first.
Everyone wants their stuff to be prioritized.
Everyone thinks that by being nice, they can set one-day deadlines for me.
Please. I'm not a robot.
I'm just a normal human beings with tons of things to do.
There's no such thing as one-day deadlines. Not here.
I woke up today, dreading stepping into the office because I know there's tons of things waiting for me. Tons of people hoping that I'll set aside other things so that I can concentrate on theirs, cause apparently, THEIR stuff is more important.
How can?
It's seriously not my fault your incompetent boss decided to hire someone with absolutely NO IDEA how to use Dreamweaver or Flash or Photoshop, and this someone is insisting on taking an ENTIRE YEAR to go and learn them. Come on lah, the other depts have taken it upon themselves to LEARN. Cause they know they won't be able to survive if they don't.
And your deadlines are so ridiculous.
Imagine this,
8th - 11th MAY - Company Common Leave Days (meaning NO WORK AT ALL for ALL employees).
And YET, you still can give me 3 deadlines on the 7th, and then another 2 on the 12th, and then ANOTHER 1 on the 13th.
Serious ah ehk, how do you propose I do? Might as well kau kasi aku semua on the 7th kan? Do you really expect me to do it at home while you fuckers enjoy your holiday?
Ya Allah..kenapa satu2 tak fikir nie?
I'm tired, I'm seriously tired.
After all this, I realized that I don't want to be a designer anymore. I never did. I remember after graduation last year that I had specifically said I don' t wanna be a designer. Alhamdulillah that I got this job and got this experience, but now...haiz.
Firstly, the pay fucking SUCKS now that they decided to minus off 10%. Less than 1.6k BEFORE CPF, can you believe it?
Secondly, I don't find my skills in designing comparable to other designers like, say Mirta or JW. They're WAY better, trust me.
Thirdly, the sales people are fucking idiots. For God's sake, go for training before you come to us!
Fourthly, the pay fucking SUCKS.
Ok, I know I should be patient, and I am. I'm saying all this not because I want to quit, but I'm saying all this because I'm acknowledging to myself the fact that I AM NOT A DESIGNER. I mean, I am at the moment, but I just don't feel it's something I want to do forever. I have a little passion in it, but its not enough to make me want to do it for 35 years.
My dad has been with his current job for 35 years, can you believe it?
Anyway, back to the topic.
I'm planning to quit after 1 (this coming September) or 2 (next September) years here. Gain more experience. I don't plan on staying very long, even though I did at the beginning.
The novelty of getting to work in this company has faded away along with my respect for its people.
True enough, it's been fun. It's been hectic, challenging and yet comfortable. But it's not for me. Not long-term at least.
SO,
Anybody want to take my place when my 1 or 2 years here are up?
Lol.
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| Climb climb climb |
[April 28, 2009 @ 11:41pm] |
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Raw fingers. Aching arms. Aching shoulders. Aching back.
The marks of a good bouldering session!
Thanks darling Aishah the Great, you made my day today!
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And to that other person, rely too much on your other half and you'll end up simply being HALF. Go everywhere, do everything also must be with boyfriend is it? Don't have boyfriend by your side 24/7 can die is it?
You have your own pair of feet. For God's sake, learn to stand on them.
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| I want to be.... |
[April 28, 2009 @ 12:56pm] |
Tonight I will be brave. Because I will be climbing with Aishah the Great (yes Aishah, this is the nickname I'm using for you from now on) at Climb Asia.
Aishah the Great, please be nice hor. I'm still a newbie! :-D
May this nervous and fluttering heart be still when the time comes.
I will let my inner child roam.
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| And then there was random. |
[April 22, 2009 @ 5:16pm] |
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I'd really rather climb at this precise moment than do anything else. Not even work. Yeah sure designing is really fun and all, but it's not fun anymore once the ridiculous requests start coming in. Absurd really. I mean, I'm open to you people giving feedback, but be reasonable please. I can't do flash games, and I most certainly can't keep entertaining your last-minute changes and almost-impossible requests. I have other things to do, in case you haven't noticed. Ahhh..but such is the reality of work. You have to deal with different kinds of people everyday, and it's not always pretty. Dear cousin's wedding is a month away (31st May, to be precise), and I'm uber-excited. That is the day I've been waiting for since their engagement last year. That is also the day I've been working my weight loss plan around. It's the day I aim to be at least 55kg!!! Don't know if I can achieve it though :\ 'IT' has somewhat provided me with a kind of escape I can't seem to find anywhere else. It tests my strength, endurance and is really challenging. I love feeling strong. I love training to be strong. I love training to tone up my flabby arms. I remember how when I was younger and when I still wanted to be Sporty Spice (don't laugh), I'd try to make myself strong by carrying as many grocery bags as possible. The grocery bags have groceries inside lah of course. I remember I wanted to tone up my arms, just like Sporty Spice -_-" And yes, I still do. I just LOOOVEEEEE getting muscle aches after a tough day of conditioning, cause I know those aches are the good kind. They're the kind that mean your muscles are torn and will need to mend themselves to be stronger. People say I'm crazy for loving those aches, but how can I be crazy for loving something good? Sure it will ache for a while, but you will benefit from it in the long run what. Come on ehk people. Those aches tell me that whatever I'm doing is working. At this exact moment, my back, biceps and chest are aching pretty badly due to the gym session with Aishah darl yesterday. I AM SO LOVING IT LAH. Oh oh oh! Love had to take down the statistics (ht, wt, etc) of some secondary school girls for his FYP project just now, and he told me there was a Sec 2 girl questioning him on where he lives and all that. HAHA! Love has a stalker! Padan muka! :p
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| Publicly. |
[April 21, 2009 @ 4:31pm] |
As you can see I've decided to make my entries public again, cause for the life of me, I don't even know why the heck I made them 'Friends-only' entries anyway. Buang masa kan.
I would like to come back to the world of the living by blogging properly again, which MIGHT involve a change of layout.
Yes. I think it will definitely involve a change of layout.
Later today I'll be heading to the gym with Aishah darl. Can't wait! Didn't gym yesterday, so am feeling a tiny bit guilty, but am wondering, why should I feel guilty when I already went on Sunday and will be going again today? Burned close to 700cals on Sunday so that should be good enough.
Last Saturday was spent bouldering with love at Yishun Safra, and oh-my-freaking-god the place is oh-so-freaking-awesome!
Just imagine an entire two-storey maisonette covered in tiles and holds! Even at the staircase!
For those 5 hours, I swear I felt like a little kid at a playground. It was so fun lah pls!
Aishah darl, promise me you'll boulder with me at least once k. I don't care!
At the present moment, I'm having a terrible headache.
Ok lah. This entry is so random. Nothing to write about.
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| seeing stars. |
[April 17, 2009 @ 11:47am] |
As I'm typing this, Hyrul Anuar (Anugerah don't-know-what-year winner) is sitting about 5meters away from me. The strange thing about seeing semi-"stars" around all the time is how indifferent we all become to them after a while.
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| Keira Knightley. |
[April 12, 2009 @ 1:48pm] |
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Read in the papers that she actually did this ad for FREE.
Amazing actress. Another reason to respect her even more than I already do.
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| Decisions. |
[April 12, 2009 @ 12:43am] |
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I'm tired.
Tired of making the wrong food decisions. And tired of feeling guilty.
I just wish there was a switch to turn my self-control on to maximum level. It sucks feeling out of control.
Ya Allah,
Please give me the strength to stay away from junk food like McDonald's, KFC, Burger King, Long John Silver's, and whatever other nonsense is out there to make me feel like shit after eating from it. Please give me the strength to substitute snacks like chocolate with fruits. Please give me the strength to choose food with the 'Healthier Choice' logo from restaurants. Please give me the strength to choose lean meats over fried foods, veggies over donuts, yoghurt over ice cream, water over soda.
Please also give me the strength to NOT CARE when my boss keeps exclaiming to everyone how 'angmoh' I am just because I eat sandwiches for lunch instead of going downstairs to eat unhealthy food from the canteen with them. Please give me the strength to not feel embarrassed when Amin yells to everyone, "She's taking care of her weight lah" in that semi-mocking voice that makes it difficult to tell if he's really on my side or if he's actually mocking me.
Please give me the strength to go through with this. I don't want people to exclaim how fat I've become everytime they see me. And most importantly, I want to love myself again. I haven't been able to for the longest time :'(
Amin.
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| Advice. |
[April 06, 2009 @ 6:38pm] |
Recently, a girlfriend of mine tried to console me when I was feeling down. Now she's nice and everything, but sometimes she simply DOES NOT make sense.
"Babe! Go do something fun to feel better ok! Go jogging with cute guys!"
-_-"
Now I don't mean to be mean.............but WHAT THE FUCK?
Now what? Am I supposed to go find some random cute guys and ask them to jog with me? Am I supposed to pick them out from the street? Corner them into a wall and beg for them to jog with me so that I will feel better?
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Needless to say, I did NOT follow that advice.
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| Cracked lips. |
[March 19, 2009 @ 12:13pm] |
Day after day I keep peeling off the skin on my lips.
Day after day my lips will sting everytime I eat something spicy.
Day after day my lips keep bleeding.
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WHEN WILL IT STOP!?
P.S: OASIS HERE I COME!
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| Lost. |
[March 16, 2009 @ 4:52pm] |
I've lost 3kg =)
Alhamdulillah.
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